Bry Bry

This is Bryan Scott Edwards. In this picture he's just about to get on Space Mountain in Disney World. This is the first vacation he had ever been his entire life, he was 17 at the time. He committed suicide this week at 26. Bryan is my cousin. We are almost exactly 1 year apart in age. He spent a lot of time with my family, he stayed with us a few times and during the time when this picture was taken he was actually living with us. I love him dearly. He had a very big heart, but was too afraid to show it most of the time. I miss him...very much.

Tonight I washed the clothes he was wearing the day it happened. I lost it, there were still 2 bullets in his pocket. Bry, why did you do this? Why are you gone? Why? We were all here, waiting for you to ask, for HELP!? We tried, but you refused, so we didn't push. You were such a caring person, helpful ALWAYS, even as a little boy. Lindle is just LIKE you! It's been so nice to be around him and see how much you two mirror each other. It kind of brings me comfort. We were looking at pictures tonight for your service, reminiscing about them. You had a good laugh, especially when we could get you going! It always seemed like you were on the verge of peeing your pants! I miss your dorkiness, that I'm sure a lot of your friends didn't know existed :) Do you remember rockin' out to mom's CD's and the song "Whip it"..you made me listen to that song OVER and OVER. You had some silly dance to go with it. Oh, and making fun of grandpa's high water pants! lol Wow we were stinks! Bry, I know you've been 'away' for a few years, but you've still been on everyone's mind. I don't want to say goodbye to you. I can't say goodbye, your too young. 

I miss you,

Weesie